a) Experienced another Lord’s favor
I wanna share a beautiful experience I just had and I’m so grateful right now. One of Ramadan Preparation Project’s assignment was:
1 – TO DO: Astagfar [Ask forgive from Lord atleast 100 times a day] 2 – TO AVOID: Anger.
Well, for me the second task [To avoid anger] seems very hard as I tend to get angry very quickly. May Allah forgive me Aameen. Anyway I get excited and I started this assignment 5 days ago. But, yesterday it got crash – I got angry and everything was BOOM!!! It was a very little issue not even that – I was reading a article on Internet and my little sister came up to me, asked if she could check something on Internet. And, that was IT – I felt like someone has put me on fire. I yelled at her and so rudely said: How dare you disturb me while I’m doing my IMPORTANT work? And, I got up, shut down the computer and went to another room and kept yelling yelling and yelling. Getting angry on such minor thing.
It seemed to me like there was a complete stranger in me, I was feeling in some area of my mind and heart that I’m doing something really wrong and there’s even not a thing to yell at BUT STILL I was doing so. I was like: WHY WHY WHY? WHY DID SHE DISTURB ME OR TALKED TO ME WHILE I WAS BUSY WHY??? My sister felt so bad and she went to sleep [pretent to], while middle sister tried to cool off the scene, saying things to me and her as well like – you both are acting foolishly. And, you [me] act SO immaturly at times that I can’t believe if it’s YOU. and, she told youngest sister that she shouldn’t disturb me and should had wait until she was finished reading.
Whole evening the environment was so grim and we’re talking to each other except middle sister. She’s found of talking and she had got a chance – but I’m glad and was surprised to see how she was trying her hard to resolve this situation between her two sisters [the elder and the younger]. I had announced that I won’t use the computer now because my mood is VERY off. Yes, VERY. and, obviously my little sister was least intrested using it at that time. Even my middle sister didn’t use because she was upset because of us. I felt a little guilty. But then again I was in ego in next moment. In the evening, my middle sister gave us snacks and candies, tried to make us laugh but sadly she didn’t get any good response.
It was a first time in a long period that we ate separately. After Isha’ I was reading a book at the back of which there was a long
list of Good Deeds [Amaal-e-Hasna]. Many of which I felt like doing it at that same moment like those were shaking me: *Respect elders and behave nicely with youngers *Avoid proudness *forgive *Speak sweetly *Remember death *Avoid quarells *and many more like these. I thought about my death and thought if I die tonight .. and I thought about this verse: From chapter # 02 Verse 44 “Do you order righteousness of the people and forget yourselves while you recite the Scripture? Then will you not reason?” and, I felt so shame. And, then I thought I ask forgiveness from Lord. and, I’m not forgiving my sister just because in doing so she won’t ever realise her mistake. And, actually I was hiding my fault and just focusing on what she did.
Shaytan tricked me and I became his prey. I went to her room to say sorry but I felt like I would laugh instead to speak so I returned. Then I wrote the apology in different languages like in Arabic, French, Spanish and put in a box with sweets and put it on her study table while she was busying reading a children magazine [Bachon Ka Islam] 😀 and NOW when I woke up for Fajr I saw this tissue paper on my study table and I just smiled and felt so relaxed but I didn’t open it before Salah, fearing the content in it might disturb me in Salah so when I opened it after Salah I just smiled SO BIG and felt so grateful to my Lord. Her tissue note was so sweet – it read as: “No need to say sorry. Dear, May Allah give us taufeeq that we be nice with each other and we respect each other feelings. Aameen. Your apology [Pardon] accepted 😀 I have no bad feeling for you. I’m feeling so sorry why I disturbed you! May Allah bless you. Oh, by the way, thanks for sweets. With love and respect” Forgiving is such nice feelings but to be forgiven is much nice and just great feeling. Alhamdulillah. Yesterday was a bad day [in a sense of mood and reactions] but today is a good day. what a start!! Thank you, Allah. for making peace in our family and put love and respect for each other.
Just about few minutes ago when I was reading Chapter#14 of Holy Book Al-Qur’an – Surah Ibrahim, I came to this verse and I was in a complete awestruck wonder:
“Have you not considered how Allah presents an example, [making] a good word like a good tree, whose root is firmly fixed and its branches [high] in the sky?” – Verse 24
In it’s explanation was mentioned that this tree is an example of ‘Kalama’ – and that’s Date Palm Tree. – and that’s what shook me. Because in the start of this year, I answered few questions in a diary ‘If I were’ – The question was: If I were a tree what tree would I be? And, my answer was ‘Date-Palm Tree’. It was just what I liked – and felt like answering. And, now I read this verse and amazingly read a Hadith as well –
Narrated by Ibn Umar: Allah’s Messenger [P.B.U.H.] said: “Amongst the trees, there is a tree, the leaves of which do not fall and is like a Muslim. Tell me the name of that tree.” Everybody started thinkings about the trees of the desert areas. And I thought of the date-palm tree but felt shy to answer the others the asked, “What is that tree, O Allah’s Messenger?” He [P.B.U.H.] replied, “It is the date-palm tree.”
Whoa!! Subhan Allah! I wrote if I were a tree I would be a date-palm tree which is like a Muslim and even though at that time I didn’t know about this Hadith or Verse of Qur’an. Isn’t it amazing! Allahu Akbar!!! 😀
So, I’m still a date-palm tree even though I’m a human but Alhamdulillah I’m a Muslim :] and will die as one Inshaa’allah!
sunnah in my heart quran on my tongue